From zero to my own hero

Growing up is hard to do. These are 6 words that couldn't be more true.
When you grow up, you find your own way.
You follow your own path.
You make your own mistakes.
You grow and move on.

The problem is, there are so many people out there that want to see you fail. They need you to fail so they can succeed. They need you to fail so they can feel better about themselves.
This is true at any age. You will always run into those people that enjoy your misery a little too much...

You learn that a big circle of friends is not necessarily the best thing. You learn to keep your friends close and your enemies closer. You learn that trust has to be earned and once it's lost it is damn near impossible to get back. You learn.

In my life I have seen a lot. A lot of which I will not get into right now, those who know me can attest to that. At 32 years old I feel as though I have fallen to the very bottom and have fought my way back to the top blood, sweat, and tears only to trip and fall down again. Sometimes I have tripped over my own feet, sometimes I have been pushed by others. What I have learned is I am so much stronger then they think.

I'm not sure what is worse, realizing you're on rock bottom or having the floor fall out from underneath you. Both are equally devastating. You really have two paths to choose when either happens, accept it or fight it. It is so much easier to accept it. Sometimes we feel like all we are doing is fighting.

At this point in my life I have realized how people work. I have learned to see through their facades to look past the surface. I trust few and have learned to stick up for myself. No one else is going to. I've learned the consequences of self doubt and I've learned the rewards of self confidence.

I like to sum up things with songs.... I think every girl, every woman, every person that has ever doubted themselves, anybody who has ever wanted to give up... here are your theme songs...



FIGHT SONG by Rachel Platten and why I love it:

"This is my fight song

Take back my life song

Prove I'm alright song

My power's turned on

Starting right now I'll be strong

I'll play my fight song

And I don't really care if nobody else believes

Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me"

ROAR by Katy Perry and why I love her:

"I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath

Scared to rock the boat and make a mess

So I sat quietly, agree politely

I guess that I forgot I had a choice

I let you push me past the breaking point

I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything

You held me down, but I got up 

Already brushing off the dust

You hear my voice, you hear that sound

Like thunder gonna shake the ground

You held me down, but I got up 

Get ready 'cause I've had enough

I see it all, I see it now"

I love these ladies <3